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where is this going?

Okay, I am making a photo blog on Wordpress. I don't like the one and only photo blog theme they offer. Does anyone know if I can get a nice free photo blog theme for Wordpress.com? If so, how do I load it? I'm not asking for much right?

I am joining a gym. My weight is insane. I have not be focusing on myself at all for a few years now and wow, my body is so out of shape and I am fat now. Not just a few pounds fat, like fat fat. I had to meet with a trainer today and she weighed me and took my BMI. Wow! That was eye opening. I need to lose 40 to 50lbs. I am 5'2 so you can imagine how I look. I think I have been a bit delusional about this and I have been avoiding mirrors since Clara was born.

So, tomorrow I start my new workout plan and my new eating plan. I want this weight off by Christmas, at least the bulk of it. I am disgusted with myself. I'm bringing Clara tomorrow for my orientation. They have a daycare and the first day I went to find out about the gym, Clara loved the daycare and immediately made friends with this huge 18 month old name Iris. This kid was so big! I guess Clara is little for almost being 2, she is still in 18 month clothes.

So, I will likely be posting about my weight. I'm making up a Yahoo group for weight loss and working out if anyone is interested in joining.

Anyone know of a cross poster thing I can use so I can keep a Wordpress blog along with my LJ? Tracie do you use one?

Or is there a blog who allows cross posting to LJ?

What are your favorite and least favorite words? Any reasons why?

Awesome. I hate how that word is used now. A night out is now considered "awesome." Awesome is a really beautiful sunset or the Grand Canyon or something. My neighbour Joe isn't awesome.

Well, just when I thought things were great with family it all changes. I wrote about my apprehension over going to David's Grandmother's this weekend, well it's not happening now.

David's Dad was supposed to come over last night to pick Ruby's pack n play up. Well he never showed up and didn't call or anything. They sent an email around 9 saying they both had to work late...what ever. Sue (David's Dad's girlfriend) came over today to get it instead. While she was here we chatted a bit. Like I wrote before they all like to drink and party, so I wasn't really into going because they get drunk, annoying and loud. I can't tell them this!!

Anyway, I told Sue that I was worried that Ruby might keep everyone up all night because she wakes up and cries sometimes....Sue said "oh I think if anything we'll be keeping her up." So of course this doesn't sit well with me. She goes on saying "last time we were there even Corin (the grandmother) was up until 2am" She also said "we usually go back to the cottage and party some more and we're not quiet!" She wasn't meaning any harm, but how is this going to make me want to go? If I didn't have Ruby then sure, I'd be right in there drinking and being annoying. My concern is for Ruby.

David's Dad drinks a big bottle of white wine every single time he comes over here. When he visited us in Vancouver he drank one whole magnum bottle everyday for the four days he was there...AND an entire bottle of Frangelico on top of that! So yeah, there are some drinking problems that no one ever mentions. He gets loud and to be honest him bringing Ruby out on the boat didn't make me feel very comfortable. He's a fricken cop on top of all this and drives home drunk every time he's here. But of course I can't say anything!

Now they're all hating on me and calling me a liar. Sue just emailed me and said she never said they would be partying all night, so I know they think I'm making it all up. I didn't want to start any of this! All I said was that I thought it would be better if I brought Ruby up on a more quiet weekend. There would be 6 of us sleeping in a tiny cottage and 4 would be drunk. No thanks. This whole time all anyone talked about was how much they all party out there and how much the Grandma can pound them back...now all of a sudden it's not going to be a party according to them.

We're always wrong in our thinking though, always. Now I wish we'd never moved here.

                              

Well, I've had a slow leak since 5am this morning. At 4:30pm I got up from a nap and felt like i was peeing myself. It wasn't a gush of water or anything, just a slow trickle that just keeps going. My doctor wants me to go into the hospital tonight at 11 or 12pm. They are going to induce me if I don't go into labour by 5am. I'm really hoping this is amniotic fluid coming out! Imagine how stupid I would feel if it wasn't?!

So, hopefully my baby will be born on February 15th, I wanted the 14th but we can't be picky.

I'll post more later if things change.